I am nearly through the working day already - it's quarter past 4 here, so I've got another hour and a half before I quit for the day.
My mood is really low - I feel as if I am on the verge of tears but it near actually happens. It's crazy really, because Andy hasn't actually left me - it's me getting worn out with him.
Slightly worried about the OM, as I wonder what he is doing back here? I think he might start trying to get me back again, and with his mental health problems there is no way. I am hoping he doesn't start the obsessive calling again, but also a tiny part of me is flattered that he still thinks about me.
I guess that's what I am missing from Andy - the feeling that I am special to him, that I am important, and you take away the physical touch, I feel even more starved of affection now which is why I am having a hard time dealing with him and his commitment-phobic love.
Today I answered all my messages on my helpline with no trouble, which is good because I wasn't sure if I could counsel today, given the stress I felt yesterday. I also answered some new calls and spoke to Jermaine from this immunisation centre, who wants to advertise on my site. I am considering his info and what fee I should charge him.
I wrote the back blurb info for the vaccination book and the publisher is designing the back cover as we speak.
Didn't post my orders (I didn't feel like walking the mile round trip to the post office) so I'll do that tomorrow instead.
