I hope things are going better for you at this very moment. Hope you are keeping your chin up.
Life stinks doesn't it. It helps me to realize that everyone in this world has been hurt by someone just as deeply as I have been. Other people give me strength. Knowing that they have it just as hard or even harder than I do, makes me want to stay strong like them. You can do this Jo.
I understand what you mean by being tired of being hurt in the present. I feel that we are taught by society to get even and screw them before they screw you. How does the saying go, "Screw me once shame on you, screw me twice shame on me." Most people are not taught to have a forgiving heart. It is this mentality that keeps us confused. With that said, I firmly believe we can also become door mats and continue to put up with more abuse thinking we are trying to be forgiving. You have to make the call here. Are you upset because Andy continues to disrespect you because you haven't put down firm but loving boundaries. Or...is Andy trying to hurt you with his little digs because you are still making him pay for the past. This crap is so difficult and confusing!
It is scary to put down boundaries. It is hard to forgive too. Hell, I don't know what I am saying. I may just be rambling here. Am I making any sense at all?
