You're right, I am scared to death, and I had never thought of it like wanting to be straight back in the 'in love' phase.
We always were 'in love' before, even after the split - I have never done 'tame'. I don't know what I'm doing here, or how to act, and I'm petrified this sitch will just go on till I'm 80 and I'll be DB'ing with white hair, false teeth, and arthritis, whilst telling my grand-babies about the Gulf War!
Thanks for the kind remarks about me being my children's mother - I don't feel like I am the majority of the time and that was nice to hear. DD4 doesn't realise I am their mother. She says I am hers and not theirs and when I say I am their mummy too, she says 'No you're not!' She truly doesn't get it.
