Recap: Andy has told me he loves me, and has now dumped OW2.
This morning I woke up really rough, with a cold and decided not to go to class. I feel physically lousy. I have been feeling a bit distant and WAW like for a few days and really struggling with my emotions, and then after last night with him being so grumpy, that intensified the feeling.
I thought after he refused my offer to look after the kids, I would just back off and protect myself more. So I cancelled our planned trip to a cafe for a bite to eat, and stayed at home, expecting him to just drop DD4 off and leave.
Instead he and the girls walked right in and he sat down. The girls all hugged me and then went off playing in DD4's bedroom and Andy sat on the sofa. He said he felt lousy with a cold and bad stomach. I said same here, so do I. I made him a drink and got some food for DD4. Then I went to sort out a dispute over a scooter that they were fighting over.
Then I sat down at the opposite end of the sofa.
Andy apologised to me for 'being too harsh' last night and said he had only just dumped OW2 that day and felt awful to do that to her, so he had taken it out on me. I accepted his apology. A few minutes of silence later, he asked me why I was so quiet. I had all this crazy WAW BS floating around in my head, so I just told him I couldn't think of anything to say.
He managed to break down the barrier somewhat by lots of light convo and smiles and maintaining his eye contact with me. I felt as if he was the one DB'ing me, instead of the other way around.
I said to him 'As long as my sexual connection is still there, we'll be alright. If that goes, we're dead.' It was a warning to him, but I don't think he really understood what I was talking about.
We chatted for a bit about the sitch in a very light hearted way, and I mentioned a few of my online friends to him.
DD2 kept coming up and hugging me. She seems to need more physical reassurance than the others.
Then they had to go to a home ed meeting and I had to get DD4 to nursery school so I walked them to the door and said goodbye, and on the way out, Andy gave me this 'ILY' look with his eyes, and winked at me and said 'I'll call you later in the week to see if we can arrange something.'
