I seem to be on a more positive road. I'm doing my very, very best to control my anger. I couldn't sleep last night and this morning I woke up negative, negative, negative. So I ate some cereal, meditated a bit and prayed. I found some peace with this.
I talked to my H this morning and asked if he would like to come over for dinner tonight but he say "no, that's okay" and I answered him, Okay. Wow, that was something new for me. I went to dinner last night with a friend and my H called me 4 times while I was gone and he came by my apartment. All of which made me feel very good. Like I said, I want the M to work out but a part of me still has reservations on whether it is the best thing for me. I guess time will tell but me and my H are growing apart and becoming more frustrated with one another. I strongly believe that if we don't get this moving forward, we will loose this battle. Any help from anyone would greatly be appreciated. I really need help in sorting out all these emotions.
