Gwynn, you have every right to be angry, but you do need to control it. I went through almost a year of angry outbursts - usually after finding yet another lie. It's normal. You've been betrayed, lied to, humiliated. However, you also need to see that the anger, resentment, and unforgiveness will do you more harm than good. Time to push up your sleeves and make some decisions about what you want with your life. If you want your H and your M, than you are going to have to find a way to control the anger. And, even if you realise you don't want the M, then you will have just let it go. Perhaps you can go to a C on your own. I did that, and she was able to help me think more coherently, and figure things out in a more rational, logical way. Or, keep a journal, so that you can write down your anger, and vent your feelings privately.
I am curious! Why did you leave your marital home, since you bought it? And, I don't think it is legal for him to change the locks until there is a settlement. Please, take care of yourself in the legal sense.
I wish you well, and always realise that you are the one controlling your life. No-one else can make decisions for you.
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim