Blackfoot... My feeling is that the letters were a way of W reaching out to you. However, it sounds like you are not in a mindset to put your heart on the line and "work" her offerings in any way. There does come a time when dropping the rope is necessary for some internal peace.
To me, you come across as a man of strength and character. Unfortunately, you have learned the hard way that the best hand is not always successful ( game theory). Mathematicians have actually directed US policy...our poker-based paradigms were no match for the Soviets ( who were more skilled at chess, a more moral game).
I do believe there is a way to stay true to yourself while applying DB strategies in order to get results, and to come out stronger in the long run...but you have to want it. I have enjoyed the comments you have made regarding attractive male behavior ( listen up guys...he is attractive)! I know you are hurting... I wish you future happiness.
