Blackfoot- You stated several times that you always take responsibility in the R because you are the man. So ok, you can't go back and redo time but why not even consider the possibility that xW and you could make it work? She reached out to you a few weeks ago and granted, it didn't go well, but isn't she still wanting to fix this? Maybe I misinterpreted that part? You still love her. Your R is F'ed Up but many are on this board. My H and I are still legally separated but we are really trying to make it work. You give everyone on this board advice with such a strong conviction yet you don't seem willing to do everything for your own M. Rip me a new one if I am way off base but she made a mistake, is confused as hell, and is attempting to reach out to you, even within weeks? This is all very fresh. What does she say about going thru with the divorce? Are you absolutely positive you want it? Did I ask you enough questions?