Which oddly years later showed up a a huge resentment factor for me. I learned I did feel my H had failed to protect me

Sounds like my x.but it showed up right away.

Why would she possible think I was going to leave her? It was so obvious to me, why couldnt she see it?
Yeah I see it with my 20/20 hindsight.

You were naive

Well that is a first. never been called that.

I think I prefered egotistical and trusting.

Reminds me, when the affair first started, and she was rationalizing, my x called me stupid, and lazy. LOL. Never been called that either. I gave her a LOOK, (usually I would just wait with no expression or emotion) and it was the only time she stopped in the middle of a tirade and looked like -Oh crap, that was too much. -- Months later she apologized without me ever bringing it up on several occasions.

You and Lfl's views and insights have meant a lot to me. I am extremely grateful, especially since my thread does not belong here.