I know we are afraid to tell our H that we still love them for fear that it would make them feel guilty of what they've done, but I don't think it would hurt every now and then
I think that is true...because they do 'need' that little encouragement to know that we still love them inspite of all the hurt that we've experienced, and there is light at the end of the tunnel; and there is possibilities that our M still has HOPE. I mean, of course when they are ANGRY and UPSET, you don't want to bring up the ILY business, but I agree that bringing the ILY at the right time may be quite positive. Few months back, when H was angry, angry, angry, I wouldn't have dreamt of telling him ILY. But lately, he seems better, calmer, and a little more jovial. I'm glad that I muscled the courage to let him know that I still love him....
Journalling.. H did call me about 10.20 PM last night. Told me that he had dinner with his customer (a woman he knew from waaaay back) at an Italian restaurant...and the meal costs $$$, and couldn't believe that both of them could eat till that amount. Blah blah blah. Told me about his meetings at work, and he was giving his ideas and experiences blah blah blah, to the extent that the boss told H to do it instead. Basically, I think H behaved like a know-it-all.... (have to say that I DID roll my eyes but sounded interested in his work!!) H did most of the talking about his job...Also asked if boys were sleeping with me... Me: No. H: WHy? You are alone in bed? WHy don't you get the boys to sleep with you? Me: I want to read. If they are in my room, I'll have to be sleeping too. H: Ok. Oh..the other day, when I was flying back to Country X, I was reading a magazine, and there was a one page article about my old company. ANd for a moment, I was regretting of leaving my old job. BUT then...as I turned the page, there was a TWO page article about how great my current company is. And I was like ...okay...good good. Me: (LOL)... Also told H that I was supposed to go to Country X next Tuesday, and return on Wednesday, but because of my flight to Mauritius is on Wed, I won't be able to go..and asked my boss if it was okay if I don't attend the meetings in Country X, and he said OK...so, I won't be going to Country X. H didn't say much about this though.
