Journalling... From my last post, I got a call from our mobile phone provider informing of our outstanding bill. I texted H "Mobile Provider called me. Did they call you? Anyway, money in account. Thanks again". Got a reply text from H telling me that he will sort the bill out when he comes back this weekend.
Later in the evening around 8.30 pm, texted H ( Seems like frequent texting but adhering to the philosophy of providing LIGHT on the boys !! ) Me: S5's eyes are swollen. Will take him to the doctor tmrw if still not okay. S8's exams starts tmrw too. But not studying...watching tv instead. Call house phone now to talk to boys. H called like almost immediately. Spoke to both S5 and S8 and then to me. Light convo...told me he got the BMW from the leasing company. Some chit-chat about the car and why he's requested a BMW blah blah blah.... Said good night and reminded him about more $$ transfer tomorrow.
Later in the night...H called again. This time he said that I should call him back. I did. And we had a long long talk. Some R talk, some work talk, some s@x talk...Can't remember the order.. H: Do you still love me or not? Me: Why are you asking me that question? H: Just want to ask. You still love me or not? Despite of everything that's happened, will you move here if I ask you to? Me: Ask me when you've really decided. Blah blah blah... H went on to describe the house that he rented...3 bedrooms with a pool in the backyard, 2 maid's quarters blah blah blah. House comes furnished, and asked "what do you intend to do with the furniture over in the house now? Don't think there is space for them over here". Blah blah blah... H: Just so that you don't say that I am getting your hopes up but I will go to the International school either tmrw or day after. House is about 5 minutes from the school. That is if I got the right school...says Elelmentary. What is elementary? S5 and S8 will be in elementary, right? Blah blah blah... Let him talk most of the time. But I did get emotional and cried and, H: Why are you crying? I thought you are sooo over me? Me: You know me...watching cartoons make me cry! Somewhere along the line.. Me: I don't want you to ask us there because you've asked her and she refused to go. H: If I asked her, she would come. BUT that's not the point. And, I swear on my grandmother's grave that she wasn't here the other day. Besides, it's not a matter of who comes over first will have me. Me: (ROlling my eyes...with tears of course...wanted to say..go to her then...but bit my tongue) I am thinking of the boys. What happens if you decide that you want us over, and then we move over, and then you decide otherwise? The boys' schooling will be out of whack. H: Once I ask you to move here, I will not think otherwise. There is no turning back. I will sort things out after the Muslim holidays. I have to travel to US and Europe during then for some training.Blah balh blah..If all goes well, you'll have to come over to see the house to see what to bring and what not to bring. The relocation company told me that the last time when I moved my stuff, only used 10% of my allocation. So, still can move quite a lot over. Then H went on to ask if I will still have my job....Do I think that I have good prospects with my current company blah blah blah... Told him yes, and he seems to feel that I should stay with my job if I can't get anything in Country X...asked me about who's gonna look after the boys if I do work in COuntry X blah blah blah. Told him that I will decide and plan, when he has sorted out himself, and ask me to move for sure. Some other parts of his words...(not in order) H: At least I am trying, right? I am doing everything that forces me to do the right thing. H: If we do get back together, you have to thank PY (his old colleague). He said just think of your priorities, and you'll know what to do. Everytime I feel my mind straying of somewhere, I think of PY. But, if I decide otherwise, also his fault...LOL...PY is like either decision also he has a say. H: She's not pregnant. I am very sure of that. If she is, you think I'll be here talking to you?
Our last chat before we ended the call.. Me: I let the cat out of the bag to C (girlfriend who's was H's old classmate) about us having s@x the last time you were back. And she was so shocked and kept on asking "I thought you told me he stayed in the hotel. How did that happen? Tell me how on earth can that happen?" H: (LOL) Me: Yeah... I kept it from her for two weeks and only told here yesterday cause I knew she would scold me. H: (LOL) Did you tell her we had phone s@x last night? Me: No!!! She'll be really angry with me. H: (LOL)...You gonna p!@y? Call me when you are almost there...Later Well, we had a couple of exchanges of texts about the pool whether if cleaning it is included in the rental, if we could have "fun" out there..blah blah blah. Then H called me "So, are you almost there?" And then later after this second call, H texted " Not sure if this is gonna help. Just wanna say i love you. nite nite."
Okay...Analysing DBING STYLE... Lots of Positives from H, I think...but not gonna get overly excited. So far, my action orientated goals are sort of achieved.. - H making first daily contact - H calling at least once a day - H "brought-up" the possibility of me visiting the house
Other Mini-Goals.. - If H really visits the International School to find out about admission for S5 and S8
You can imagine my yoyo-ing mixed emotions of elation and apprehension of the current happenings in my sitch. Please pray for me that I have the strength to go through all these yoyo-ing episodes....
p/s So far, no contact from H today...but it is only 10 am.
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And then later after this second call, H texted " Not sure if this is gonna help. Just wanna say i love you. nite nite."
