Kismet - No, don't think that he could move back if he wants to reconcile. His work contract in Country X is for two years. Plus the pay is really good compared to what he was getting previously. Plus, I don't think he "dares" to come back. His willpower is not really good? Yes, I know that giving up everything and moving to Country X sounds not such a great deal for me. But I think that's what needs to happen is we are to be a family again.
KDU - I know that I am not practicing DBING principles anymore. Yes, I am sick and tired of all his indecisiveness. But more importantly, I am really quite enjoying my life now. And I do feel stronger. Well, I admit that I was at a confrontational streak the last few days, but I really want H to think HARD if he wants to reconcile. Because giving up my life here at my HOME country is a big big sacrifice and H really needs to come back to me realising that rebuilding our marriage WILL be hard work. Not the sugar and spice, and bed of roses. For your info, I've not been nasty to him. Not exactly DBING, but certainly not being cold, just matter of factly type of speaking. Don't think I've really mentioned about OW the last few days either....
Journalling...Needs to be Rated R?? Thursday... H texted in the evening to give me his flight details back to Country X. Called the home phone...went to the fax because was in the bathroom. Then he called my mobile and inquired where I was. Told him that I was in the shower...had some brief chit-chat. Asked me about the boys, and if they missed him blah blah blah. TOld me his flight is delayed. Then we ended the call. I went to tuck the boys in bed and then sent him something about the boys. H texted back. H: So cute. Missed all of you. Now I wished I have some nudy picture of you!! Can look at it when playing with myself!! Wanna send me some?? ( ) Me: No way!!! H: So angry!!! How about NO FACE.Only the brazilian bit?? (:o) I didn't reply. 3 Hours later...another text from H to tell me that he had arrived and wished me good night.
This morning (Friday), H called me up and told me that he couldn't come back...blah blah blah. As usual, told the boys that he could do this and that...and now, gonna disappoint them again. This is what I hate...giving empty promises to the boys. He hears their excitement when he tells them that he is going back. WHat he doesn't hear their disappointment when I break the news to them. I was very calm when he told me that he couldn't come back this week or next or ..till middle of next month. Told him that I will be away from the 12th to the 16th, and the boys will be off with my parents too that weekend. And then he said "Oh..in that case, I will try to come back next week." Told him that he needs abit of planning to get the cheap airfare. Ended the call. SEnt him a text not long later "Don't worry about the boys. I will know how to explain to S5. Besides, S8 has to study for his exams anyway. Appreciate you TT the dosh though". Later...some IM exchanges about $$$. No, I didn't make any sarcastic remarks...Was all about practical issues. No news from H thereafter...
Basically, I know KDU would disagree, but think I've been behaving quite well. in terms of H anyway..
Little GAL... - Work has been great...challenging... exciting..am handling a whole new project. - Went out dinner at a swanky restaurant with bosses and some guests tonight - Birthday this weekend... all planned out...tomorrow * yoga in the AM * Brunch with Girlfriends * BBQ Dinner at my Parents' Place * Karaoke Night Out with the Girls -Sunday...S5's Concert at his Kindy - Perhaps a Facial Plus Manicure/Pedicure in the Afternoon??
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in terms of H anyway..
