Yoyo, I can totally relate to how you are feeling.
I am just sick and tired of all this round-and-round and all this yoyo-ing, all this sick promises
But you know you need to stop calling/texting him when you feel like this. Maybe put a post it note on your phone. (Trust me, this works). Come on here and vent to us. Hey you could even phone/text us so the WA s wonder about all these mysterious phonecalls we are getting
I am not sure if your H is "classic mlc". I think I just assumed that from something you said.
Your holidays sound blissful. It will be lovely to escape from all of this for a while. I am sure you will be able to handle your "little monsters", just go have a massage and check them into the Kid's Club.