Kismet..

Yoyo, you certainly are living up to your name. Okay...will try to stop the Yoyo from yoyo-ing anymore. It's difficult, I have to tell ya.

Am I impatient? Probably, but aren't we all. It all just seems to go so slowly.
 I was doing soooo well, and then I don't know why I am so impatient now. Perhaps it's fueled by him making assurances like "Don't worry. I'll make things right", "I missed you and love you", "Looking for a home near the International School" the list goes on and on, and then I see nothing, or worse, see signs of OW. *sigh*

I think he is probably having a conflict with his feelings/emotions. I can see that he is trying to reconnect and then pulls away, which I think is pretty much text book (even more so if mlc).
 The conflict with his feelings - YES. Even he himself admits that he is confused. The reconnecting and pulling away - Yes...that I see it soooooo often. Telling me loves me on Thursday, and then sounding sooo distant on Friday. You think my H is classic MLC??

Journalling...
Have not heard from H since mid-day yesterday (via text). Really have the urge to text him "Are you still alive?". He he He.. figured that even if he's decided to leave the family and want nothing to do with us, I still need him to be alive to provide the dosh $$$$ Controlling my urge to text or call him... the TextBook NO NOs of DBING.

SIL #2 just called me. It's her marriage registration today. SHe's called to check that I'll be coming with the boys. My mom actually told my MIL that she wanted me to not go. Well, I don't see the harm of going. So, will be off to see my in-laws later today. I am sure that my in-laws will be very glad that I went. My H has opted to go back to Country X on Friday, and miss his sister's marriage ceremony. He could have (he really could IF he wanted to) made arrangements to go back to Country X after the ceremony. But NOOOOO... he leaves on a Friday to go back to Country X for the weekend. Really makes me wonder if OW is with him...gallavanting in Country X, looking at potential new homes.. Anyway, H's family is also really disappointed with H's attitude. He was back here for 6 night, and he didn't even call up his mom. Only called up SIL #2 to apologise that he couldn't attend the ceremony. Only saw his kids for like 5 hours, and spoke to S5 on one of the other days. Really wonder who is this person????

Oh...KDU may say that I am full of myself...but when I was in Country X (working hard, by the way), I thought to myself that life really wouldn't be that bad without H. My company put me up in this 5* Diamond Award Hotel... The place was really really luxurious. Soaked in the tub on the second night. It was Bliss... Hey, I could get used to this....he he he..

Anyway, other GAL for me..going away to Mauritius in 3 weeks' time with some girlfriends... woo hoo.. and going to Phuket with my two little monsters in 8 weeks time. Another ...wooo hooo.. (err but this trip with the boys, probably will pull my hair out due to the stress of screaming and handling my two monsters...) Of course, all this punctuated with my work...which is going along very very well. Busy but going towards the right direction. Just have to focus and not have H and OW pop into my mind.

One Day at a TIME!!!!