Kismet - I know it sounds really really dramatic....like some kind of a soap opera. I have to say that I am very very confused, but am trying to stay calm and not react. I am really all over the place at the moment. Hopefully, in a few days, I will be back to normal. Just have to continue to keep calm till then.

Journalling...
H did call me about 10 pm last night.
H: Hi! Are you in bed?
Me: No. Watching a thriller on Cinemax.
H: Okay. Bye then.
Me: Bye.
Ended the call. He calls me a minute later.
H: Hi again! Didn't manage to make my visa. Got to go again tmrw. Soooo many ppl. Like a mob. Quite intimadating actually. The Q for the photocopying is terrible.
Me: I thought you've got all copies done.
H: Oh that has been given away, and I need more. Told my boss that I will only be at work in Country X on Thursday. He said not a problem, just get him a bottle of whiskey
Me: Your boss AJ? Or who?
H: Yeah...blah blah. I've got to go to office tmrw. Old office. To sign the "Acceptance of Resignation" letter. They were all joking that technically, I am still their staff since I've not signed the letter. Plus I've got to return the parking card. Oh.. I've got a going away party tonight with L and the gang.
Me: Okay (eyes rolling...)
H: So, when are you coming back?
Me: Tmrw (I've away for work. Left on Monday AM)
H: And country X?
Me: Yeah, I'm coming back tmrw, and then leaving Wed morning to COuntry X on the 9.20 am flight and leaving on Firday evening.
H: Don't think I will be there. Probably will only fly back on Thursday. Maybe I'll see you before you leave or something.
Me: OK
H: Okay, bye

So.... very calm convo. I know that I told him to NOT CALL, deep down, I don't know what I want now. For him to continue to call and chat with me or to ignore his calls. All these thoughts were racing in my mind the whole night. I really don't know. Maybe I have to go kinda DARK. I know I shouldn't but I was thinking of her staying with him in the hotel. And felt kinda sick. I know I can't control him...but can anyone give me some advice on what to do?????? Please...some advice required.

One Day at a TIME!!!