{{WCW}} I was there. I know just how you feel. Turning off your emotions is a tough choice, but it does help get through the "fight" portion of what you are doing now. It's so hard to turn them back on after, also. But it does come. I did recover from the first betrayal, after all. It just really stinks that I was pretty much back to normal and not hurting that often, and it all came back.
I remember trying to get affection and being a good DBer. It's tough. We are here for you. It may not be what you want, but it's all we can give you.
I know just how you feel. Turning off your emotions is a tough choice, but it does help get through the "fight" portion of what you are doing now. It's so hard to turn them back on after, also. But it does come. I did recover from the first betrayal, after all. It just really stinks that I was pretty much back to normal and not hurting that often, and it all came back. 
