Zilla, I want to let you know that I don't want to push you. And don't worry about hurting me or pushing me away either. I know it's going to take time and I don't expect your pain over my betrayal to go away over night. I know it may seem to you that I'm all happy but I'm not. I am glad that you allow me to hold and kiss you because it's important for our reconnection, but it hurts me too because I can tell it hurts you. Yes, I am anxious to move on but only because of my guilt and I realize that. I just wanted to let you know that I realize you are still hurting and will for quite a while.
