Tessa,

You're very welcome and welcome back to the board. It is perfectly understandable to have the reaction you did. It is only natural to pull your hand out of the fire when it's getting burned. And natural to pull your heart out of the fire too.

I think you have the right attitude with "working on myself and living my life". Enjoy the life that you do have and perhaps things will fall into place one way or the other; either with or without him.

Wanna share some of your personal goals with us? And goals related to your H? Maybe listing how you plan to live your own life will be helpful, to you and to us as well. Good luck Tessa.

Me

In the end, it's not the years in your life that count. It's the life in your years.
Abraham Lincoln

It is hard to fail, but it is worse never to have tried to succeed.
Theodore Roosevelt