The first thing you need to do is to take care of yourself. Get nearly daily, good exercise - even just a half hour of brisk walking is wonderful for the body and soul. Eat plenty of fruits and vegetables, they will help you feel a lot healthier. Don't be who you aren't for H. You need to be yourself. Volunteer for something you are interested in.
I used to think it was selfish, but you really need to put YOU first. Because once you do that, you'll be able to take care of other things (and your family) better. And personally, I'd rather see you both take fast-food jobs then see monster every day. But you are better than her, so make sure that you carry that thought when you see her.
