Mollie, Hi! I meant to say hello and spaced it off. I've been thinking of you lately and then you popped in. So cool! I need to track down your thread and catch up with you...
Quote: I know what you mean about the heart melting thing--don't you just get a little butterfly when you see him. Even after 11 years of being together I still get that when he walks into a room.
ummmm, yeah, it's pretty amazing, but it's been 27 years now, and I always get the little butterflies when I see him, and sometimes my heart actually jumps and sometimes....uhhhhh, hmmmmm, I just plain feel horny as h--l from the mere sight of hime and want to grab him and ....have my way with him!!!! It's kinda embarrasing to admit that I still feel that way for some reason, I'm not sure why. But, I've come to realize a BIG part of our problems has been my shyness....I never let him know I felt that way, and I almost lost him...he keeps asking me "why" I never opened up about it...and I have no good answers, except that I learned very clearly NOT to as I was growing up. Dang, did I ever get led astray.
Quote: You didn't mention it but I'm sure you do let him know how much you appreciate those e-mails and good they make you feel.
Oh yeah! that's a lesson learned the hard way. I try to make sure that I let him know ALWAYS how much I appreciate it. and how much I appreciate all the stuff he DOES do...mowing the lawn, laundry,...and I've let the stuff he doesnt do that I wish he'd do go unmentioned. Another lesson it took me all these years to learn that I wish I'd discovered earlier.
Every now and then I tell him how grateful I am to him for the home he's provided. Even though it's pretty modest and I figure I did 1/2 of it and we owe way too much money on it....it's nice and comfortable and I wouldn't have it if it werent for him. And, he always somehow looks so grateful to hear that. and he ususally talks about how much it means to him and how much we've accomplished together.
sigh. Why do these lessons take so long to come?????????????
It's kinda embarrasing to admit that I still feel that way for some reason, I'm not sure why. But, I've come to realize a BIG part of our problems has been my shyness....I never let him know I felt that way, and I almost lost him...he keeps asking me "why" I never opened up about it...and I have no good answers, except that I learned very clearly NOT to as I was growing up. Dang, did I ever get led astray. 
