Deb, things have changed so much for you! I know what you mean about the heart melting thing--don't you just get a little butterfly when you see him. Even after 11 years of being together I still get that when he walks into a room. You didn't mention it but I'm sure you do let him know how much you appreciate those e-mails and good they make you feel. My H isn't that romantic so I don't get much of that stuff. For me it's the phone calls when he isn't going to be right home to tell me what he's doing. Sometimes I forget but I try really hard to tell him I am glad he called and I appreciate it. I know it is an incentive to him to keep doing it if he knows I appreciate it.
Life is so much different than before isn't it! Last night my H was telling me his friend wanted him to go to the jet ski competition with him in Nevada "to look at the girls". H didn't think it was a good idea for a "fat kid" like him to do that cuz they'd all laugh. (yes, he is a little over weight!). Anyway, I said I didn't think that was true and I thought he was the best. He said, "I know you do, that's why you are mine". So, I think they just want us to adore them no matter what. It's hard sometimes, but that's what "act as if" is for, right?
I hope things keep getting better and better for you!
You have worked so hard and you should definitely be proud. Your H has gone through alot and you have always been there to support him, even when he couldn't return the favor.
