Kismet, Anna, KDK, thanks guys it's nice to know others feel the same way. You know with my H his first long term proper serious R was with me. So he never sort of played the field when he was younger and I wonder now at 41 if his MLC is b/c of this. Is he now trying to play the field as he has never done it??? Or am I just finding another feeble excuse for his behaviour.
I don't ring him or contact him but b/c he is in more contact with me I find myself thinking about him alot more and I dont know which direction I am heading in so I fell in limbo. At least before I was either DBing my heart out so my goal was to get H back and then I was detaching to get the true me back and now - well it is more like no man's land.
Looks like I am back on the rollercoaster - damn it...I really thought I was making progress awhile ago..... KDU
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