Journaling.... Well H rang me today just to say hi and to say he may pop in and see the kids afterwork....I don't understand what is happening at the moment. He is very friendly and nice, ringing me and going and seeing the kids, he has not done that once since he left and he did it last week as well.
I don't know what to think as part of me feels he is invading my home when I am not there but is that me just feeling left out - remembering he hasn't lived in this house as I moved 2 months ago and he hasn't been one to just drop in on the kids till now. Normally he just comes and gets S9 has a coffee and goes. So WTF is with this.
He also has this weekend off which means he will have S9 for the weekend but he said he might come over Saturday and he and I could go to the gym together and then he will help me with the garden in the afternoon.
Now remember I said he is seeing this nurse from his work and he says he is taking it very slowly with her and I believe he is seeing her. So why the change in what he is doing with me and the kids. Is it b/c he is happy with his life at the moment and he is just trying to help me out....I don't know but I don't know if I am comfortable with this. I know Anna loves this kind of contact but I don't know if I can do it on a friendship level as I still have too many feelings for him and know I will start wanting him back....
Any ideas or thoughts would be appreciated.....KDU
