Well H came back to work last night and dropped off the work car and said he would come and pick S up for the night as he was on a late shift Friday, I said yep no worries and he said he was going home for a shower and would then come and get S and take him to the movies, I said O.K. do you have any idea of what time and he said it wont be that long why do you have plans and I replied well yes I do have parent/teacher interview at the school for my 17yr old and he said oh well I will try and be quick to which I replied no take your time I will make sure all his stuff is at the front door, that way if I am not home you can just pick him up knowing you have everything as the older kids will be home. He said Yeh but I should see you, and I said O.K. well if I see you I see you otherwise I will catch you later and he said yeah well I will see you saturday for gym say 8.30am and I said yep fine see ya and jumped in my car and drove off. I normally would have made sure I was there when he came to pick up S but I did a 180 and left early so as I wasn't there and it is all still feeling quite good, I used to think about him nearly every minute of the day b4 but now it is not like that and I tell you it relaxed the mind a bit. I still find it amazing how the more we distance ourselves the more they want to know, it's like they are happy when we are just sitting in the wings waiting for them but once we GAL and they are not so sure that we will still want them back, they need to try and reel us back in so as to have us in a safety zone for when and if they decide to come home. Well stuff that I am still going to live my life for my kids and myself and try to not think of H very much at all and as I have said before what will be will be....I am at such a better place at the moment and I am going to do my best to keep myself there....Till next update....KDU
