Kim, welcome back! Vent away ~ it is hard going through all this stuff, especially when the kids are affected. From memory, I think your parents were divorced? I know mine were, and I think it makes it harder as you see what your kid is going through, and you also relive what you went through at the time.
Now that you have put it out there to the universe that you are interested in some attention of the male kind, it will happen, and yes it does give a girl's confidence a boost. Get out there and live your life.
If it is meant to be with your H it will. You aren't closing any doors. You are just getting on with your life


Smile, it makes people wonder what you are up to!