I want to go back to the person I was which was outgoing, friendly, caring and according to everyone else good company and lots of fun and there is nothing wrong with that for too long I have brooded about my H and my M and secretly wallowed in self pity and existed just to wait for him to wake up.
KDU - I'm so proud of you! What you have realized that you may not even know, is that you have switched from playing the victim to playing a survivor!
I think I am getting close to truly turning a corner and maybe that is where I need to get to in order to truly DB.
And you are correct, it does improve your DB skills because you'll find now that DB is also about saving yourself and not just your M, and by doing that your PMA will be lifted to a totally new level. Like you said, sometimes you have to take that break from it all to switch gears.
And when your ready to put that energy back into DB if thats what you decide - your going to find you approach it differently then you ever did before and find a completely diff. reaction from your H because now he will see he's going to go 'my my who is this lovely little creature who's positivly bubbling with self esteem......I remember you - wink wink nudge nudge'.
