KDU - Think your illness made you a little grouchy and impatient? I don't want to whack you for backsliding (god knows I've done worst) but I think your H has been rather concerned about you, checking up on you when you were ill and helping out with S. You did tell him to take his time to decide. But, don't beat yourself to death for this episode. Guessed what you can do is...when he next calls (he definitely will call...) just gently apologise and say something like "your medication blah blah made you a little irritable...blah blah, and you apologise for your behaviour". I think men somehow don't REMEMBER stuff that well, and will accept your apology quite happily and think things are cool between you two. And hope you can continue to DBING from there....