Almost came here to vent all w/e, but didn't! It's not about ex though!
Dreaming wasn't as much fun last nite, my Grandma showed up in it to talk to me (she is one person in my family that never liked ex) and then out of her mouth came 'Find the letter Q'. (our dog walked on an ABC book that was left out!) So, that was wonderful advice from Grams!
Hey, Michigan won Saturday in First OT! 34-31 over Mich State.
So, why am I crying over it?
The neighbor set this one off again. (thought they were my friends, but beginning to wonder) Last week it was on and on about how 'bad' the Michigan team is this year, this week, Michigan was just 'lucky'. Now I know being in a different state and still rooting for my home team would cause me some flak here and there, but I sure am missing the rivalry that always came during the Mich v State game. It was great! Local stores would have contests, everyone would wear their teams colors, and wherever I worked; the employees would get into some friendly bickering over it! I miss that, and am homesick again!
Working on my goals this w/e didn't help either. Have been looking into getting some assistance for help w/expenses and that shoots the PMA down. And of course, I came across some notes that I took from the d/b book a few months back and the first page I turn to: Self-Limiting behavior #1: I can't put my own happiness before my child's.
That's where I am stuck. I want to go back to work, I want to work in Michigan, in the auto industry and this will just disrupt my k's.
I was really hoping to be able to hold out until after this school year (s17 graduates and not moving k's in the middle of a semester again!) but I don't think I will be able to. I have reread through my threads to look through some of my past goals, and even though the endless interviewing is frustrating, my PMA is much better and more consistent when I'm focused on getting a job and into a better financial sitch.
But then, I am happy here w/the progress s9 has been making. Dd25 is close by here and pregnant! And then I keep telling myself, money isn't going to make me happy!
Totally irrelevant and confusing vent today! I'll come back and post my new goals! T
