ok, who said that??

Seriously, isn't that a line from a movie? Maybe a horror sequel?

Actually, I haven't really left or went anywhere, just lurking more than posting. And trying to get someone's life in order, (not sure if it's mine or s9's) He had an accident last nite and came and told me immediately. So, it's not much but it's still progress. I was trying to fight off some bug yesterday, (in the bathroom more than online, if you get my drift ....eww!) and then when I took my dog out for his business, I stepped in some other dog's dodo. double eww..eww! Then I had to clean up s9! triple eww..eww..eww!!

Now that I have successfully grossed everyone out. I will post an update w/the ex sitch.

To backtrack a bit; I begged and pleaded over getting ex up here for s9's bday way too much. I realize that. It wasn't until I stopped talking to him on the phone that he finally made a visit. So back to what works. Since the visit, he's called about once every other week, but I was out on 2 of the calls and busy during the other one. I figure if he can't call back, then he wasn't really wanting to talk to me that badly.

The emails have gotten to me a little tho. First he was cheerful and saying 'miss you all', then it changed to some frustration 'would like to hear from you' to downright anger how is my son doing?

I knew that being dark w/him was going to get him upset. But I also feel like I am being baited here into an argument and that isn't going to work either. I'm going to continue to disregard any emails that are in this tone.

My goal is simple We want another visit. So, when he comes up w/that suggestion, I'll talk to him again. It's a long shot, but I am actually getting more comfortable by NOT falling back into the same patterns. (a 180 here - he used to call, email...I'd follow up w/a long discussion or message and then no word from him for days)

That's my sitch in a nutshell. Still keeping the PMA up, which was difficult yesterday being sick (and finding out Michigan isn't even ranked anymore ) and working on finding my true purpose. (might need some feedback/input there - hint, hint Gabe)

t/c every1,
T