lbh of waw,
your approach is so inspiring. my W and I, used to pray alot together, we would meditate together, so after the bomb, it was too painful to do it, i would brake in tears... now, however i gradually am returning to the Great Silence, praying and believing. i find that it is the only way to keep hope and faith, and to react from love. this is actually a very important step to reconcile eventually... if not, you have the power of Him anyway.....
my prayers with you.