Just wanted to add how sorry I am for what you are going through. I know it has got to be hard for you. Give yourself time and try to do somethings just for yourself right now. I hope you have a good support system around you.
Please heed Gels advice
As for how you feel right now, you're going to go through a gammet of emotions, hurt, anger, depression etc. Go through it, don't try to shut the feelings out, don't try to stifle them...go through them and get it out.
The only way to truly heal is to go through all of the stages of healing. This is a large one. Maybe you could see the C on your own to talk through everything that is going through your head and heart at this time and she can guide you through this healing/dealing process.
Again my heartfelt sympathy for where you are in your journey of life.
