At dropoff last night, XW went to a different location than the one I suggested, then insisted that I drive S6 to where she was, as she just couldn't drive over to us due to her car being stuff she was moving, noting it wasn't safe. I didn't argue, and we drove over. When we got there, XW was grabbing dinner inside (it was a fastfood restaurant parking lot). She came out within a few minutes, and I felt a mixture of irritation and pity for her, as she now eats a lot of take-out crap and looked exhausted. Don't get me wrong - she's still gorgeous, just not up to her past standard.
Well, when she asked S6 to sit in the front seat, I noted "Do you have the airbag turned off?" She said, "No, do you know how to?" I replied, "No, but I'm sure the manual talks about it." That's where I messed up. I let my anger at her willingness to put him in harms way derail my ability to give assistance when asked, however poorly.
Then I slipped further, noting, "S6 mentioned when I asked him to strap in my truck, that you allow him to ride w/out his seatbelt on long trips. Is that true?" XW rolled her eyes and said "No! Of course not! I've gotta go." I replied, "Good. B/c that would really put him in danger." Reality is that she was lying, as S6 was very matter of fact and clear about it. I want the XW back who would take a bullet for S6. Why can't she think beyond herself sometimes?
Another snafu: I called and left a message on her VM, noting that as his class was going to Mass the next morning, he needed to wear his tie. As I signed off, I slipped into program mode and said "love you", caught it and, laughed, saying "whoops, sorry about that, have a good night" or s/t to that effect.
I fretted over my mistakes, called LostinLimbo, and was advised to let it go. Can't undo the past, gotta focus on the present. At pickup, XW was late but cheery. She came out of her car, I was positive to her and S6, and she talked briefly about his school performance and I joked about him seeing me as a walking handerchef, as he had walked up to me and wiped his poptart smeared hands on my shirt and pants. She asked if I noticed how much easier the commute is from her condo to his school. I smiled, chuckling to myself how there was no thought to the reality that the house hasn't moved, and going near her condo to pick up S6 adds another 20 min to my getting him to school. She looked tired but hot.
She asked if I noticed how much easier the commute is from her condo to his school. I smiled, chuckling to myself how there was no thought to the reality that the house hasn't moved, and going near her condo to pick up S6 adds another 20 min to my getting him to school. She looked tired but hot. 
