I don't want you to feel left out by the voice of unreason.
So here comes my perspective with the requisite disclaimer.
As to how she feels about the D or herself or you or dating or coconuts?
WHO CARES?
As for her wanting to meet you at her place, understand it has NOTHING to do with you. Since I first took the kids to XW's house, I have not been invited back. She comes over here to pick up; her space, like her life are private.
You spend (in my for whatever it is worth opinion) an inordinate amount of time replaying and analyzing EVERY interaction with her in hopes of discovering some infinite wisdom about her or the R or D or something to let you know what on Earth is going on in her head. Then you are knocked back, when she spins the other direction because you gave too much hope to an interaction.
Yesterday, for little reason I could measure, I was in a crappy mood. Then I realized, much to my dismay, I had not talked to XW since midafternoon Sat, (the kids went with her after football) and we had an increased amount of communication the previous two to three days and then suddenly it stopped and I realized, while it was it no way significant, I missed it. I was still tying my ups and downs to her.
And you are doing the same. You want to see something that is not there. You want one of these exchanges to magically open her heart and mind. You want to give credence to the (perceived) positive and ignore the negative.
I saw marked improvement in your distancing and attitude and perception when you were thinking about you and actively involved in something. You become frustrated with her when you try and analyze and sort out HER behavior.
