Quote: I think Kevin has my Achilles heel down - talking before I think it out, especially with my temper flared.
Something occured to me as I read this statement. Venusians tend to talk in order to process things. Could it be that this is your Venusian side coming out? After all, I'm a firm believer that all Martians have a Venusian side, and vice versa. Maybe if you could find a FF to bounce things around with when you feel the need to process in this manner? Just a thought...
I'm glad the trip went well. You could have hung out with an old hippie who would have said you were very attractive last spring, but OH WELL! Blew that one, eh? Just kidding, honey!
I'm sure your XW is miserable for lots of different reasons, and none of it has anything to do with you! Isn't that a wonderful feeling?
A perspective on this from the post-recon side of things -- I spent the night at SO's last night. After we ML, I told him that I noticed he does not gaze into my eyes as much or as long as he used to (this is something I noticed several weeks back). He told me that it is still b/c he is "working on coming back...coming back from a lot of bad choices." Clearly he is still processing a lot of pain and guilt he has caused himself in the past year. I simply reassured him about how much I love him. Then I found myself crying...and they were tears of overwhelming joy at being right back where I knew we both should be.
Whether you recon with XW or move on to a new and better R, this long hard road has all been worth it, my friend.
And, btw, this is the first I'd read of the RO. I'm sorry you've had to endure that on top of everything else.
Just kidding, honey! 
