Quote: I'd be willing to pay her to give me good scalp... (I am careful to use the proper verbiage here )
Ha! Betsey, you are hilarious. And point taken - if I have to pay for it, why not! (j/k ) However, as I'm nowhere near reconciliation, and I'm not ready for dating yet, I think I'll work in some day spa visits.
I'm pretty sure a LL of mine is PT, so I'm a bit starved in that department. I wonder if a person develops appreciation for the other LLs in such a dilemma? Kind of like increased sensitivity to sound and touch when one's sight is lost.
At pickup, I pumped up the PMA. When XW stayed in the car, I ran over to S6, gave him a big bear hug and swung him around a few times, getting some laughs and squeals. I caught XW watching when I stopped suddenly and bent down to wave, smile, & shout "hey!" to her. XW seemed to linger a bit, and circled the truck with her car 1.5 times (odd) while I was helping S6 into his seat. As I was looking good and wearing snug slacks, maybe she was checking out my arse? I don't think my bods looked this good since we were just friends. Feel bad about letting myself go during the M - she deserved better than that from me.
On the way to school, S6 asked me if I wanted our family to 'get back together.' I asked if that's what he wanted, and he replied 'if you do.' I noted that I love him very much, and he said, 'And you love XW very much, too?' I replied, 'Yes, S6, I love her very much as well.' S6 asked how many people I knew were praying for our family, and I said "A lot', rattling off some names when he asked. He smiled. Then he noted, 'But Mom has to choose to get back together or not, huh?' 'That's right, S6. We each have our choices to make, every step of the way.' He seemed focused on it a bit more than usual, but to have a rather realistic view of things - e.g., there will be no quick fix. I was glad to see our convo shift and stay with lighter kid stuff for the rest of our way.
I'm a bit pooped today due to less sleep again, but I'm excited about working in some new exercises when I workout. It's paying off - had 2 younger women comment on my build in the past 5 days. I think XW is noticing, too. I'm not sure, but I think I caught her being a little flirty with me nonverbally in terms of posture and closeness yesterday eve. Gotta be careful, especially with the RO in place, but I'll see if closeness can be increased when the opportunity presents itself in the future. I'll think about staying relaxed and confident, with maybe her increased confidence and sense of safety allowing it.
) However, as I'm nowhere near reconciliation, and I'm not ready for dating yet, I think I'll work in some day spa visits. 
I don't think my bods looked this good since we were just friends. Feel bad about letting myself go during the M - she deserved better than that from me.
