I picked up S6 Sat morn, and XW and I chatted briefly. She noted that she was going to a Buddhist temple to meditate (this actually would be great if she could accomplish some ability to quiet and focus inward - didn't see this in 12 yrs). I commented that I was going to DC for a peace rally, and when I noted that I was negotiating for additional seating on a bus/train for folks, she stated that she'd like to go. It seemed very spontaneous but not well-thought out, as she' suppposed to move that weekend, plus she'll have S6, who won't do all that well with 10+ hrs in transit one-way. We chatted briefly about war stuff, but it had a superficial feel to it - like XW was competing with me or s/t. I stayed relaxed, noncommital and nondirective, ending with a "well, let me know."
When we left, I discovered that she hadn't packed his school shoes again, so I called her and we agreed that she'd take him to school on Mon morning instead, bringing his shoes wit her. This cost her ~1hr of driving, but she accepted it as her problem due to her forgetting his shoes.
S6 and I had a great weekend, fitting in lots of play, family stuff, and planning for our house.
At dropoff this morn, XW looked unhappy and rough. With no makeup on, she really is starting to show the effects of her partying/ summer fun. I do still love her, as it hurt to see her this way. She was so much more beautiful while we were together. I kept my PMA and tone of voice up, letting S6 have a bearhug and when I shouted out, "Have a great day, XW", she looked up and smiled.
