Wes, yeah, there are 2 other promising dates I've postponed, but I'm definitely not into it right now. Plus my next 3 weekends are booked, so it doesn't make sense right now. Why waste OPs time when Im not ready. I'm trying to take a few pages from your playbook, and relax and stay positive around her. Things are soo much more constrained with the RO in place. She's made me dinner, and given small gifts since then, but I feel like I'm not able to truly relax around her while its in place. Maybe the moves will help, with her getting her own space and me have my own true household finally.
Steve, yep he's S6 now. Time flies incredibly fast. Importantly, I'm realizing that his personality and views of key issues like M and family are being shaped right now, giving my behavior and choices that much more meaning. On the lighter side, each age of a child is miraculous. I keep catching myself saying, "Okay. This is it. I'm enjoying him so much at this stage in life, I wish he'd stay like this." Then he changes more, and I like that too.
Sam, I pray that you are right. That she does notice my positive changes and that she connects the dots and realizes she's made a mistake.
Feeling a bit low today. Less sleep last night, and 2 glasses of wine may have done it.
A positive side note: I heard last night that my Dad has good news - no more treatment is truly necessary (chemo) b/c his surgery was successful.
