Quote: . "Why do I insist on begging this man to want me?" "What do I get out of prodding the sleeping bull of his insecurities?" "What do I get out of even asking the question of why don't you want me."
Ouch. I have been asking these questions for awhile.
A few months ago, they all seemed to lead to the suggestion that it was better to get out of the M. I re-committed to the M, and now, the answers seem to be 1)because I want a SL, and the only way I'm going to get one morally is with my W; 2) I get her to be pissed off but maybe prod her out of her comfort zone and get her to grow; 3)I get her to tell me that she loves me, but doesn't feel like showing it in the way I want her to, and then I get to tell her that she needs to try harder.
But it still feels like crap on a daily basis because, objectively speaking, I continue to live in sexless marriage.
