Came home yesterday to absolute chaos. H had a bad workday. He said that it was too bad to even discuss. The kids had left the chore list largely undone and had created messes around the house. Three of five had no school or work yesterday (they are in college). He had already screamed at them before I got home. H rarely screams but when he does it is ugly. He prayed at dinner for "just one thing to go right".
I ended up going to bed before him and he came in and snuggled me soooo tight I almost cried with relief that sometimes he does remember that I am someone to come to. Sex? Who knows when he will next feel any desire. When he is stressed he just doesn't.
Does it matter to me that I am anticipating another sexual layoff? Yes. A great deal. What to do? I'm not sure. I really mean what I said in another thread. A lifetime with little sexual contact strikes me as a sad and colorless life. A lifetime without H would be worse. So, I guess I am left to negotiate these times with H as best I can and as best he can.
We are having a family meeting on Friday night. I plan on addressing most of the issues and letting H have the luxury of the back seat. He usually handles the big discipinary type discussions. Maybe if he feels supported he will be more able to deal with his stress.
