HP,
Are you planning to attend WWME in the near future? I think it may do you and MrHP worlds of good. Right now, I totally understand what you are feeling, but at the same time I think recovery from it is going to have to come at least in part from yourself. He's trying, but he doesn't have the secret decoder ring to tell him what steps he needs to take to be the man of steel you are seeking. Have you told him recently what you think you need in a man (not that you really know at this point either). I guess what I am saying is are you leaving him any hints as to how you'd like to be wooed? Nothing overt, I know that would smack of the same old having to provide all of the heat, no nothing like that. What I mean is just something small that he can mull over so that he can start finding a direction.

I guess at least your dream wasn't making the grass greener argument for you, LOL. I'm also guessing that you don't have a clue as to what would bring your feelings back for H (nor do I). A month ago you would have been swinging from the chandeliers and shouting from the rooftops if H had done that to you. Look at the good side of it....he's got at least some of that aggressiveness that you were seeking in him, but it isn't easy for him to access it.

I feel for you sista, you got it bad! Just think about leaving a couple crumbs for him. Maybe you should email him a link to csw's thread I'm keeping you and your H in my prayers.