Hi Honeypot My mild-mannered H also does not usually act aggressive in bed and I think if you were in the right frame of mind so to speak you would have been very turned-on. I would love my H to just "have his way with me." That's hot. But I am also very HD right now so... Interesting dream about shopping for men, lol, I'm sure we could interpret that fairly clearly. When I was with H pre-separation I was not HD towards him but still craved being HD with others. Do you feel like you still have your drive but not for H right now?