Well folks we ML three times this weekend. Woo Hoo. H was interested, we talked before and after, and I could feel that he also had desire. Did we try different positions? Did H come after me like a starving man? Did he praise my beauty? No. However, we had good, connected sex that we both enjoyed.
Finally, I actually asked H this weekend whether he thought I was pretty. I generally avoid these kind of "no win" questions but I tell ya, sometimes I just wonder. H lauged. I asked him why he was laughing. He said that he was laughing because he said that he thought I was the most beautiful woman he had ever met and that he has thought so since the first time he saw me. Ok - I had to elicit the answer but the answer was given in the same spirit that I asked. I asked a genuine question. I believe that I got a genuine answer.
I need to figure out how to sustain the momentum of good feelings, comfortable connectedness and sex. Maybe it is time to write some goals for this week... I always try to praise H, thank H for things he does etc... This weekend I gave H a really nice massage after his long workout. I'm thinking that I should come up with some more creative goals that enhance our recent connectedness. My fear is that I will wind up frustrated and disappointed when H gets increasingly tired out as the week moves along and that by the end of the week I will feel hurt and neglected. When that happens I feel like the connectedness and loving feelings that I experienced were just conterfeit. We've been down this road before. I'm not awfulizing or making a prophecy of dire results here just strategizing about how not to wind up in that spot.
