HP, I'm not sure what MrsGGB is feeling. She knows something is different, as she keeps asking me if she did something to make me mad at her, what am I angry about etc (I am not angry in the least...at least as far as I can tell. I've just lost that loving feeling). Anyway, last night she asked if we could talk, but not last night because she was too tired, so we have a talk date set for tonight. I guess that is something, because she never wants to talk.
Funny thing, is I think perhaps I am as guilty of resisting change as she is. I had no intention of detaching like this, it just happened. I think the realization that she was going through the sex for my sake, and that she wasn't really getting much out of it is the pin that popped the balloon. It isn't the reason the balloon was over-inflated and ready to pop anyway. I haven't had the heart to tell her that I'm not feeling in love, which I suppose is rather dishonest of me. Like you, I'm not going anywhere: The kids need a dad, we can't financially swing a separation, and besides I did make a committment to her in front of God.
I wish you were telling us that your detachment woke MrH up and that he morphed into a CSW. Acceptance of a non-relationship rather than fighting for more would probably just push you (and me) even further away. Surely he's got a little bit of backbone in there somewhere? How much do you need to let go before he'll fight to keep what he had??? HP, you were supposed to encourage me and tell me that this would pass, instead you are telling me there is no one ready to grab the other end of the rope and pull you back in. That, my friend, sounds very lonely.
I pray for both of our S's to find the cajones to pull us back in. ((((((HP))))))
