I'm glad you found out! But...no caffeine? SERIOUSLY? I almost went all day today with no caffeine. I usually drink about 2 liters on a workday. I was sleepy in the afternoon but I'm not sure if it was from the caffeine or not. Gotta cut back. Eventually.
Anyway.. were you referring to needing advice from H because he's DB'd me as a WAS?
Sadly, no. But that's a pretty good idea. I was meaning advice setting up budgets and dealing with financial issues. A little ironic considering your next post (more on that later).
I wouldnt stay in our R just because I need to be with someone.
That's awesome. It's scary, but I can't come up with another way that really works well.
I know I ramble too much and fail at being impeccable with my words
No way! You ramble impeccably.
H has lied to me yet again about financial stuff. I'm pretty hurt about it and feel "sick" inside.
ICK! I'm so very sorry. You've worked so hard at this and have been rewarded at this time with another disappointment. I know exactly how you feel. Well, maybe not exactly but pretty darn close. I'm really trying to figure out a good strategy for handling that scenario, but haven't come up with anything yet. When you feel up to it, maybe you can put your mind to figuring something out as well. In the meantime we can meet here and commiserate as long as it's healthy. Maybe things will look better in the morning?
I just want to cuddle up and do nothing and feel loved...
Exactly. We deserve that and we'll have it again. Perhaps even with the two people we're cohabitating with right now. You've said it looks somewhat hopeless in your sitch and you don't even really want it right now. Again, I totally relate. Often I look at W and I see so much to love. But if I zoom out and look at the big picture, I wonder if I'm just letting myself feel trapped by her health issues.
But IIRC, you've said you were going to stick with it through the end of the year. Please remind me if that's right. I need something to get me motivated and hopefully keep me motivated for awhile. If you still think it's reasonable for you to keep going that long, I'll commit to doing it with you. We'll keep our hearts open and let ourselves be vulnerable at least that much longer. Maybe not every day, but as a general rule. We can share our joy and disappointment here along with our friends. And we can work out more details of this agreement if you think it would be useful to you. Think it over and let me know.
My heart is is great shape! YAHOO!! They made me stay on the treadmill the whole nine mins so I could tell everyone I'm in above average shape for a 38 YO woman. So, that's what I'm saying.
And that's what I love hearing! That kicks a$$!!!
Stop WaitingFeel EverythingLove AchinglyGive ImpeccablyLet Go
