Hi Sikan!

A BIG hug for you because I understand the stress of losing your H to that place and all the crap that comes with it! I do wish you lived nearby so we could take a walk and talk with each other. Just knowing the person Im talking too understand (even if I'm being irrational, judgemental, and childish..lol) helps so much. I have a lot of friends here, but I'm a transplant so not any family except H's. I stear clear of them most of the time because they are snobs with a capital S. Well, they're who taught him to keep up appearances, hide the truth if it's dirty, and problems shouldnt be discussed because that's what makes them real.

Yep, H knows that's why I'm cranky on Sundays..not sure about Weds, that's always been a slow day for me emotionally for some reason. Do I think it would be worth mentioning to your H? If you're not sure how he'd take that.. maybe you could do something different to change the mood of that day for yourself. Whatever your routine is, can you change it up? If going to work with him is making you anxious.. maybe you could go separately that day. We had sitch where I would pick H up at work to go to counseling and it made me angry when I saw OW. I loved picking him up because we could spend an hour together before meeting the C and we'd eat and talk first. But, the stress and emotions of being at his workplace spilled over into the week and by the time I got over my feelings about seeing her, it was time to go to C again. So, I stopped doing that. It helped. I've always been fascinated that God tells us to guard our hearts. I've pondered that a lot and have thought about the sitch's that I allow myself to be exposed to.. the people I'm around, etc. And I realize that He's telling me to take care of myself emotionally. DR talks about that too, and it's helped us.

hmm hmm hmm.. creating the weekend on some level constantly. How can you do that? Do you do anything to re-connect in the evening when you get home? Does he come home stressed out from work.. do you? Awhile ago before the munchkins totally took over, H and I used to spend 15 mins laying on the bed together after work just hugging and being close. I can't remember us saying anything to each other, but we always snuggled up and relaxed before dealing with anything at home. We don't do that anymore. It would probably help if we did. It was good way to focus on what's important and leave the office behind.

Hey, where have you been this week? I've been SEWING. Can ya believe it? I thought of you while I was hand stitching the letter "A" on a t-shirt. I was ashamed that I didnt get my sewing maching out! I also sewed on a bunch of velcro by hand.. bad idea, but I finished. My D11 wanted an outfit to wear to pep rally's and I made her a t-shirt. We cuffed a pair of capris and I fixed them so we could velco wide strips of ribbon in her school colors on the cuffs. We used the velcro so she can change the ribbon to Auburn colors or whatever. We made a ribbon belt to match. She looked pretty cute And today I found a fabric purse that matches a skirt that she bought. I sewed some flower appliques on it and added beaded trim. I'm mentioning this because it's one of my GAL things. When she and S19 were little I was the Mom who painted shirts for every season, and did crafts all the time, but I stopped when the boys came along. I love being creative. This week when I couldnt do much I started that back up and gosh, I'd forgotten how much I enjoy it. I'm gonna work on halloween shirts after the boys go to bed tonight. H helped them paint pumpkins after dinner and i made caramel apples... yum! Was a nice evening

Hope you're having a great week!