Need Advice on How to Move On

[Burgbud]

Did you write this sentence intending for me to <insert here> from my sitch and see the light?

Heh. Nope. I was definitely too stuck in my own drama for that!


If he heals her.. she should be strong coming back home from time with him.. not the other way around!

Good point. Why didn't I think of that?

As for the rest, you're right. There's gotta be some way of dropping the rope more than I have. Maybe not right now but within a week or two. I mean, right now you honestly would not believe the stuff I'm doing. She seems to be past the withdrawal phase but has been dealing with migraines for two or three days. My PMA suffered some on those days because I was feeling like it just wasn't worth it. I had to get back to the point where I realize I'm doing so much because I want to, not because I'm expecting a result. I didn't go into it expecting a result, there just came a point where it seemed it should be a natural consequence of what I was doing. I had to let go of that again.

But the current state of affairs is an unworkable long term solution. As time goes by I need to make that more and more clear.


Can you ease her that way just enough to give her a taste of what she is saying she wants to do?

I hope so. The larger the taste the better, far as I'm concerned. If Om turns out to be a basket case, I fail to see how that's my problem. (Though strangely enough I do feel like it's my problem to some extent. Ick.)


Big hugs.. where is our weekend of relaxation? Are you hiking? If not, why? Are you going to let her plans affect your need to get away and enjoy the fresh air this weekend?

Unfortunately it looks that way. Last night she figured on waking up feeling good and getting out and doing a few things. That would leave me with some time tomorrow (Sunday). But instead she didn't sleep much and got out of bed about 1:00 with a migraine. So we'll see. At least I managed to get my run in. And I slept late. And I haven't read much but I have been watching some football. So in between running food and other items down to W when she's downstairs, and going down to bring things up for her when she's upstairs, I've been pretty relaxed!


I have a lot of speculation on this, but ...

It's a weekend of relaxation, let's have the speculation! For entertainment purposes only, of course. Be creative, go wild!

But mostly, enjoy your own weekend of relaxation and mad cleaning.