I finally got to read your posts. Great job at dropping the rope with your H and letting him have his mood. I'm trying to be better at that and like you am starting to reach a point where I don't fear losing my R with H. If it happens, it happens. I can't spend all of my time fixing others and letting my own life fall apart.
Work has been absolutely horrible. I cannot deny the fact that I need to leave this place. I've been holding off for so long but I realized yesterday that I am not able to fully focus on changing my life for the better while I am in this situation.
I hope to have some time journalling this on my thread.
How is your weekend looking? I'm at a zen retreat for most of the weekend and then attending that wedding Saturday night. I saw OW walking downtown during lunch time. Thankfully she didn't see me. It was like a little mental preparation for me for this weekend.
My H just called and asked what times were my retreat this weekend. I automatically assumed that it is so he can hang out with OW. Obviously I don't know for sure and since I've stopped looking at her page, I won't. I too ahve to drop the rope and it sucks having to do it on something like this. Please remind me this is for the best! That I am doing this to reach larger, more important goals!
God, what a week!
Sounds like you are doing ok. I hope that is the case. Talk to you soon!
