Thank you for the background info. No apologies about the length, I could write a book with some of my replies if given the time.
My PMA is all over the place. I'm doing some really great work with my C on my self-esteem issues but my god, once I start to dig in they come crawling out of the woodwork. Actually, that's a really good visual! OPen up those parts of myself is like lifting up the damp rock and seeing what crawls out! Today, I feel really, really down. I'm not sure why?
My C pointed out that so much of my happiness is situation dependent. Lately, I have been feeling depressed because I think that I am doing a majority of the work, especially with myself and H is not doing much at all, especially on himself. Also, he's so negative so much. He complains all the time about where we live, stupid people, the state of the world... you get the pic.
I'm tired at times of being around someone who just complains but doesn't do much to change it and looks to others to provide his happiness. There, I said it! My H really annoys me when he is like that I really don't like him when he acts that way. I'm done with feeling guilty or trying to do a song and dance to get him to feel better.
I feel like crap and I am doing something to change and a lot of times, I still feel like crap! But I am doing something about it! God, I feel like so much of this can be avoided if I just stick to minding my own business most times.
So much of this stems, I think, from trying to do it all myself. I really need to drop the rope and make a list of personal goals that I would like to achieve.
I'm going to continue this thought on my thread before I totally hijack yours. I hope all is well with you today.
I also wanted to say that your sitch sounds like it is becoming more and more positive, in spite of the recent setbacks.
