I found my self at a crossroads latetly, I am not one to do things half way. Its either all or nothing. So I am trying to decide if I want to leave a window open, if so how will that affect me or if I slam the door. If I slam the door then I've been considering changing my cell #, so he can't reach me. That is what I mean by If I decide I am done, I am really done. I saw him briefly 3 weeks ago and one topic let to another and told him it was never too late and he'll never know how much I care. He asked if he came back how would it be different to give him the short version. And I did. He ended the conversation with "we will talk again" I guess he ment about us. Well, hasn't happend yet. We've communicated, but no "talk" yet. I've summerged my self with work and random activities, to not think of my situation. And also trying to look at all the blessings that I do have. When a negative thought comes into my head, I bring a positive one to squash the bad one. I guess patiance is still the name of the game. But on a positive note I've learned alot about my self and how I contributed to the demise of my Marriage. This time alone has done wonders, too bad he doesn't realize it.
