Today has been a hard morning. I saw him yesterday for business but the conversation turn into us. He says he left because I did not appreciate him and he did not have a support system. I maybe manythings but one thing I am not is not appreciative, how can he even say that?? Nothing I say or do makes him belive other wise. He's made up his mind. 90% of the reasons why he quit on us are things about me that are completely wrong and it makes me crazy. To top it all off the girl he is not interested in but is friends with and keeps hanging out with ( she does want to see him exclusivly) he went shopping with her and bought her clothes. Says he wants to be alone, but his actions speak of something else. wtf. I want to get so many things of my chest to tell him that I hate what he has done to me, to break our marriage so easily, that part of me wants to not ever see him again, that he broke my heart, that as a man I am dissapointed in him, that he has forgotten who I really am , that I am not the person he is painted out to be and that when I recognized my errors and asked for forgiveness and a chance to try, he turned his back on me, how could he. I have been faithful to him 100%, still am and have wanted nothing but the best for him and I always put us first.
ok, this turn into a ranting post, but I just can't belive he finished us for such stupid things as him thinking I wanted to take trips more than having a home, when we only went on a real trip once and I was the one who put the downpayment for the brand new house we got 6 months ago. Why couldn't we have both.
